1. I work part-time. There has not been any opportunity within the past two years to work full time. This is difficult when you are trying to support yourself and your unemployed husband, and I am tired of relying on so much help from the parents.
2. Every fiscal year presents yet another possibility of being laid off. Every year the library comes out over budget and hints about laying people off while at the same time building new libraries which will need staff.
3. I feel like my creativity has been severely stifled. This may or may not have a lot to do with working part time. It is difficult to become very engaged in really working to change things for the better when I work only about 2 days a week. Plus my boss likes to micromanage a lot of little things and does not like things to change, which is also hard to deal with. It's easier to not give a crap than to have to deal with her nitpickiness.
4. I am not outgoing or charismatic, yet I am supposed to lead teen programming at the library. Yeah. I am introverted and withdrawn. I hate having a lot of attention on me. I agree that teens need their own special programming, but I don't think I'm a good choice to carry that out. The only reason I have been burdened with this is because we are so short staffed and there is no one else.
5. I am going to get my Master's by the end of the year, and we are STILL in a hiring freeze and there are no new positions. I do not want to be a certified librarian working as a part-time library assistant. That just sucks. I want to be able to support myself. Ugh.
6. I just feel completely unengaged right now. I just don't a have a give-a-crap to spare for this job.
7. Dealing with patrons feels a way too much like babysitting.
All in all, I have definitely been looking for other library jobs in this wonderful country. I desperately want to move to another state, just to experience something different. Somewhere with a less sweltering summer. Like Alaska.
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